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Jessica Comola: Bargain with Baphomet

July 10, 2013 by PBQ

This is my first time to surrogate, my small gut pants:

In these next hours, I will come back to a world
where empty means safe. For now,

I house the runt goat. For ten months I’ve steeped ginger in my belly,
trying to keep this devil’s kid alive.

My skin is the prime filter. I am the husk keeper. Now,
I take the prim dosage, make my womb medicinal, wait for the kick.

      I was meant to die out                        after this birth.
      I am the great dispensatory    dried away by rote.

I keep darning my sky charts, holding a thermometer into the atmosphere to see if it is time yet.

There is little breath left         in my ribcage.
When I started this:

he wove me inside a hemp talisman to keep me still
(as a spider bewilders with string, charms with a kaleidoscope of arms)

The bargain: he says this will save my house below the sawmill pond,
my trapezoid of children, my horses eating out the field.

For ten months, I’ve thought I could haul it out like the root of a vegetable, this runt
and make a run for it.

But he has grown a bullseye inside me. I can feel the hoofs, the horn-stumps, birthmarkings—

I wait to soften into the sog of this hollow, sponge the scratches from my hips.

What he will have left me:
      forest of hangnails, body breathing in the musk of the sluice, the scaffolds of a stick-crib
      between my legs. I have to smoke him out before he gets me sick.

Filed Under: Contributors 88, Issue 88, Poetry, Poetry 88 Tagged With: Contributors 88, Jessica Comola, Poetry, Poetry 88

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